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Talks with Tragedy.



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yellow dressThere are days when I need to believe that Tragedy is a human being.

A living, breathing, fleshy individual. Wrinkled & Grey.

Yes, some days I want so badly for Tragedy to be an elderly man who wears a checkered newsboy cap and is too proud to use a walking cane to steady his step. And he goes up and down the boardwalk of some seaside port, the mist of salt water curling around his glum face as he grumbles about grandchildren that never visit anymore, not since his wife passed at least.

He does this ritualistic walking nearly every morning, no matter the temperature, before he settles into the Same Booth of the Same Seaside Diner he has given his quarters & nickels to since childhood. And a woman named Betsey is his waitress. And Betsey has no idea but she will regret never having stopped to hear the awe-inspiring stories that the man holds. Tragedy, well he’s seen wars & great battles & a fair share of natural disasters, but Betsey will never know that. To her he’s just a tired, cranky old man who rarely ever tips. Tragedy takes his coffee, fresh or not, sipping slowly as he stares out the window at the children leap frogging over one another in the water and then toppling into the waves.

And he breathes in deeply, forced to cut most cups of coffee short because a funeral requests his presence or the news reports are already telling anxious viewers that Tragedy has arrived, even before he even knows where the atrocity took place.

Standing off in the distance, Tragedy hangs his head low until the next job calls. Wondering when he can retire. Wondering when the world won’t need him anymore.

On these days, when I convince myself that Tragedy is an aging man with faulty vision and a grumble with no grin, I am tempted to scour through the yellow pages and call every seaside diner until I find the one who tells me, “Yes, that man is a regular. He arrives here every morning at 9:30a.m.”

I’ll scuffle into sandals and sling the morning Boston Globe beneath my arm, stuff a few old photos in the deep pocket of my tote bag, and march right over to that seaside diner with every ounce of resentment percolating inside of me while Tragedy waits, unknowingly, for a refill on his coffee and for my arrival.

“We need to talk,” I’ll say, speaking before even fully sliding into the booth across from him. Before even seeing the wrinkles that surround Tragedy’s Sad Blue Eyes and the anguish already written upon his face.

He’ll just stare at me. Let out a slow chuckle. The saddest laugh I will ever hear. I know it already.

You think you are the first person to approach me with a newspaper? Get that outta my sight,” he’ll say.”You were going to open that damn paper up to page A6 or D1, doesn’t really matter because I am on every single page, and show me all the problems I have caused by being there. You people act like I take delight in my job, like I enjoy attending twelve funerals an hour and showing up at the bedside of sick children. You people think I take vacations when I head over to places like Japan & Afghanistan to oversee the rubble and the devastation.

And then, then, you’ll pull some photo out from that bag of yours and tell me that I took someone away that you loved very much.

And that wasn’t me kid. That wasn’t me.”

Anger will burn at my cheeks as I pull my tote closer to me, envisioning the photos of the woman laughing in the side compartment of the bag. I want him to be sorry. I want so badly for Tragedy to be sorry. Not indifferent. Not unphased.

His voice will crouch lower. Softer. Practically silent.

I don’t plot the sadness and cruelty of this world, I just show up because that’s my job. You try to imagine doing a job every single day where you know before you even stroll out the door in the morning that people don’t want you around, that no one is ever going to be happy to see you show up. I’ve seen the look on Joy’s face when I arrive at a good pool party. I’ve had my face slapped a couple of times by Happiness and that twin of hers, Elation, when I “ruined the party” and made everyone go home sobbing. You try being the bearer of the most awful, most terrible news, every single day and then you tell me how it feels to be attacked over your morning coffee.”

“But I just don’t understand,” I’ll say, trying my best to keep composure. “You are absolutely everywhere and I don’t understand how the world can keep spinning and moving when Beautiful People pass away or a shooting kills dozens. I don’t know how to move on after you show up. After I locate you in every sad photograph, looming over victims, or I can feel your presence around me like a shawl that I wish would just stay off of my shoulders. My head hurts just thinking about all the places you’ve been and the pain that comes with you.”

That’s not your job, kid,” he’ll answer. “Your job might be to pray that I will disappear but it is not your job to try to understand why I am everywhere or to think about the places I have been in a day. I am the one who has to take all the sadness of the world onto my shoulders, not you. If you think it’s you then you better take a good hard look in the mirror and rearrange yourself because the world wants something different from you. And if you cannot accept that then here, here, let me give you a job:

Show up, after I have gone, and help people pick up the pieces and clear away the mess. My whole life would have been different if that had been my job. If I could just stick around after I did my job as “Tragedy” and then really help people. People are really, really broken. I’ve learned that best from the funerals, and the shootings, and the kinds of events that make no sense when their jumbled and splayed on the cover of the paper. But don’t get so caught up in your anger at me that you forget to help people and give them hope. You people forget your power too quickly… you let fear win, you let me triumph when you shouldn’t. Do you hear me, girl? I don’t want to triumph. I don’t want to win. I don’t want to be center of all you people’s conversations. I don’t deserve that, I never have, so don’t let me win this one. Please look for hope and work on forgetting me.”

He’ll stand to gather his coat from the booth beside him.

Listen kid, I have to head out. The job calls me at all hour,” he’ll say, placing two single dollar bills on the table beside him. “Remember my suggestion though… That’s a better job for you.”

He’ll reach the door, swinging it open with a vengeance that only yields the small clanging of a single bell at the top of the door.

Oh, and one more thing,” he’ll add, stepping back through the door. “Take that picture you have in your bag and find a good frame for it. You don’t have to bother showing me, I already know she was beautiful. Maybe I should have said that first.”


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